Norfolk mother Kyra Welch writes about her experiences with her terminally ill four-year-old son Kaiden Griffin at Christmas. Kaiden, who grew up in North Creake, near Fakenham, and now lives in Holt, has a congenital heart defect.

Dereham Times: Young Kaiden Griffin. Picture: Kyra Welch.Young Kaiden Griffin. Picture: Kyra Welch. (Image: Archant)

Dear time, The most beautiful aspect of life.

From the beginning, I've hated you, I've loved you, I've needed you.

I hated you, I hated you so much.

You were never going to give me all the time I need with my son, there were things in his life I will never get to see.

Dereham Times: Young Kaiden Griffin.Picture: Kyra Welch.Young Kaiden Griffin.Picture: Kyra Welch. (Image: Archant)

I won't be able to watch my son grow old, fall in love, have children, or just live his life. You were never going to give me that time, and I hated you for it.

I hate that time is endless but he'll never get to realise that.

I hate that there are people in this world that do not deserve you and there's people like us that need you.

I loved you.

Dereham Times: Young Kaiden Griffin.Picture: Kyra Welch.Young Kaiden Griffin.Picture: Kyra Welch. (Image: Archant)

Your still holding out, we are on borrowed time and every single day I am so grateful to you for that.

I remember when he was in hospital and I used to imagine just sitting in the garden in the sun and just watching the world go by,

I didn't think we would get to do that.

But we did, because we had time.

I love that you have given us time to make the most incredible, unforgettable memories.

It just hurts knowing that one day it will all be a memory. Because we didn't have enough time.

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